“Whether we have been sinned against or have sinned ourselves into misery, the Bible says God is not tightfisted with mercy but openhanded, not frugal but lavish, not poor but rich…It means on that day when we stand before him, quietly, unhurriedly, we will weep with relief, shocked at how impoverished a view of his mercy-rich heart we had”.DANE ORTLUND
For years as a new Christian I had lived in fear of coming face to face with Jesus and being turned away. I grew up with a “some things are just unforgivable” mentality which projected itself onto my relationship with my Heavenly Father. I had an impoverished view of Christ’s heart. My striving to be in His presence was not out of love and adoration for Him, but a deep and crippling fear of hell.
I remember the moment the Lord revealed more of Himself to me, correcting my warped view. I was reading Zechariah 3 ‘The cleansing of the High Priest’;
“And the Lord said to Satan, “I, the Lord, reject your accusations, Satan. Yes, the Lord, who has chosen Jerusalem, rebukes you. This man is like a burning stick that has been snatched from the fire.””
I was that burning stick, snatched out of the fire
Within a heartbeat, my spirit soared as my heart found the true meaning of my salvation. There was no amount of good works which would get me to heaven, it was all in the finished works of Jesus who deeply LOVED me.
For the first time in my faith journey, coming face to face with my Lord was a moment to long for. Gone were the days of fear and rejection. I no longer wanted to be in heaven, simply to escape the horrors of hell – I wanted to be in heaven to spend every moment in the presence of the one who holds my heart.
My Lord Jesus Christ